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"I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life, It’s like I just stepped outside, When everything was going right And I know just why you could not Come along with me This was not your dream, But you always believed in me!" ♥

I have recently realized that I'm letting satan win. I've gave up, I've quite, I've said yes to the things I should've said no to and vice versa. I know all I have to do is pray for forgiveness...but, I feel like it's just gunna happen again. I'm going to start running. I'm going to start swimming. & I'm going to get lost once again. My wall keeps tumbling down everytime I try to rebuild it but, I have to stay strong & get through this. I'm tired of people asking me what's wrong..I don't want to burden people with my thoughts,worries,fear, or anything really. Plus, once you tell one person..the whole world knows. It's just how things are. Drama & gossip is never going to go away. There are too much people who don't care anymore and I think I'm on that path if not already there. I don't like where I'm going. I want to pray for forgiveness. I want to start over...but, I'm to the point where I feel it's too late. I've read the Bible, I know it's not too late..but, what you know and what you feel are 2 completely different things. Right now, I'm trying to keep my self sane..but, I feel I'm not succeeding. I type these blogs because after a while...thinking isn't enough. & I've thought way too much lately. It's ok because once I stop being a freaking idiot and pray for forgiveness and truly mean it..everything will be good unless I keep falling for satans trap which I have done a lot lately! So here I am..sitting at home trapped in my patheticness. but, I will rejoice and be glad. I will pray for forgiveness & I will do it now.

My God is amazing! He loves me, even know I'm an idiot. & I love Him too!:)

Steph Alderson Is Outt.:)