:)

You were everything to me.
You had my heart, you earned my smiles.
I thought we might actually last quite a while.
I shoulda realized that you weren't gunna change.
It was wrong of me to expect you too.
Yeah, but, I still kinda miss you..
I know you don't need me.
You got her now.
She'll give you her everything.
& by that I mean everything.
but, it's ok..even know I have to see u everyday..
I'll just turn the other way..
& I shoulda known that's whatcha wanted from me all along..
but, that aint me..I aint gunna stand for that.
I'm a girl not a play toy & I shouldn't be treated like I am!
but, you don't care..you're just a devil with a country boy tan!
You stole my heart.
You led me to believe..
that you may actually truly love me.
but, it's ok..even know I have 2 see u everyday..
i'll just turn the other way.
So she can keep filling you up between classes.
You can keep puttin your hands up her shirt
You'll keep playing this game until it's game over.
But, you took my heart & earned another life.
When are all these girl gunna learn your big fat lie?
But it's ok..even know I have 2 see you everyday..
I'll just turn the other way..
You can keep flirting with every stinking girl
and treating them all like they're your whole world
all ya want is sex
& sadly that's what you get.
butcha didn't get it from me & it aint something I regret!
But it's ok..even know I have 2 see u everyday..
I'll just turn the other way..
& I'll smile the day away
knowing that I wasn't one of those fools
who fell for you before realizing you were cruel..so..soo..cruel
You're a jerk! You're a lier!
You're a player who knows the game!
To you, every girl is just so plain!
You want their bodies & that is all.
You want there hearts, you want them to fall.
You think they're weak..You think you're their everything
& then you leave...& you realize that maybe some didn't giva dang!
Yup that's me! Idon't giva dang! You can keep my heart, I'll buy a new one!
You better remember those smiles..because those will b the last from me!
Yeah..
but it's ok..I'll just turn the other way..
I don't wantcha back. Not now. Not ever!

O:)

I've gotten to the point in life..where I really don't care anymore. Why should I care what other people think of me? I don't. I also realized that I don't ever want to get married or date or bleghh all tht stuff. Lol I just don't see the point of it. I can never give some dude or female (so no one takes this incorrectly) anyways, I could never give anyone my heart. & I don't plan on changing for anyone & I don't want to make anybody change for me. I just rather stay single forever. I can do it. I don't need anybody..I just need God & I will be fine. Honestly, I don't want to have to share my smiles,my home,my anything really with anybody ever. I'm not being "greedy" I just really rather stay by myself. I've never met anyone in my entire life that I could be with for a long period of time that didn't irritate me in some manner. & I know there's supposed 2 be someone out there for everyone but, I've considered maybe God wanted me to stay by myself? I don't know..and for me to try to guess is just going to make God laugh. I'll just be patient and follow His plan but, as of right now I don't want to date. & I sure as heck don't want to get married. In my mind, no one is awesome enough. LOL:) I'm not settling for anybody who doesn't believe what I believe. I aint settling 4 anybody that isn't honest,confident,nice,respectful,patient, and I'd appreciate if they like sports and stuff too & I aint settling for anyone who aint willing to take me to church on Sunday mornings & nights! & I will go 2 the church I choose daggummit. I might have "High Expectations" but, oh well..they aint changing & I aint changing! I got God & that's all I need! & ALL I WANT!!!:)

Steph Alderson!:)

Super duper trooper!:)

Haha!
Steph Alderson had a super duperly awesomely magnificent most definitly amazzingly sweet day!:) And guess why?? Because God LOVES me!:) & Guess what else!!!??? He LOVES you also! Yepp!!:) Lol

Anyways, herez da dayy,

1st hr-pre-ap english- we read a "verrry scawwie" book called the dangerous game. We didn't finish but, Carley & I kept predicting what was going to happen(making up completely out of this world conclusions) & it was fun stuff..can't wait to finish it tomorrow!:)

2nd hr-p.e- we ran a mile...fun stuff. lol & I still needa fix my shoelaces!! LOL:) & umm....I think that's it..oh and we did our stretches thingy mcbobs lol & i still suckkkkkk at pushups and situps:)

3rd hr-civics
We made a collage using one of the following topics: the services government provides. the way government helps. laws. We chose services!! It was fun lol but, ofcours rae and weso r fightn like the whole time so mainly Brookerz & I did the work. lol

4th hr-Algebra2..the most dreaded hour.
The teacher gets on muh nerves! but, I did learn a lot though so I guess that's good. Ask me to solve a 3 part linear equation(if u can even make any sense out of that)!! Just ask it! I'll solve it!:) LOL

5th hr- CBA- fun..i guess..the teach' is purty kwl and we just did computer stuff..while timmy laughed at my anger towards the computer.:( LOL

6th hr-AgSci&Tech- We just looked over possible agricultural careers and I proved 2 mrs. s tht coaching could be considered an agricultural career. We could be a coach & a farmer. So, I got to choose that as the job i researched.:) new seating arrangement.. i sit by rae,mckayla,& travi.thrillz. lol

7th hr-B@$k3tb@11
We did the shooting thing again. & stories that were supposed 2 STAY IN THE LOCKER ROOM! LOL got a little mixed up & told to coach. grr. talk about embarassing! LOL:) nah..i really don't care. LOL

8th-Physical Science
gotta watch some chickaz fight & stuffz but yeahhh. and we have a new seating arrangement. guess who im sitting by? Josh. :( Lol but, he's been nice so i guess it's k. grr. mrs. d! LOL:)

Bring It On!

Well...it's Monday..I somehow survived last Thursday,Friday & the weekend & I somehow survived today..I don't know how.. I know it was all God!! He gave me the strength because if it wasn't for Him, I'm pretty sure Steph Alderson woulda been an emotional rollercoaster today!! lol but, even know I steal feel like there's a huge hole inside of me..I will pull through & I will keep praying for them. I can't help it that it's pretty much the whole student body against them. They made the decisions. He chose to cheat on me. She chose to be the one he cheated on me with. They knew what they were doing. They're big kids. I don't care. When people talk bad about them, I tell them to shush, I don't wanna hear it. Even know I really don't want to I still take up for them. I still do what's right. I still pray. & even know they don't really care...there opinion doesn't matter..God's does! So keep throughing these arrows of fire at my heart devil!!! God's love will put the fire out! So all I gotta say is BRING. IT. ON. I mean I'm already miserable. My friend/aunt is fighting cancer..& doesn't have much longer. I've already had my heart broken. My sister has fell & we don't know if that baby's ok. I'm already having ankle problems which effects my running and basketball. I have other health problems... So why not make me more miserable? Nothing you can do will ever make me love God any less!! I love God! I love Jesus! GET USED TO IT!:)

Steph Alderon is out.:)

August 26th 2010...I survived!:) lol

1st hour-Pre-Ap English....Fun!:) After Mrs. Gregory having me debate with her because she said it was very entertaining how I could think up comebacks haha..that's funny. & we worked on our research report..after being completely dissapointed when I found out that even know we had to write about something about environmental issues..we couldn't write about how humans are an issue and that we should just kill everyone to save the earth..I thought it was an excellent idea but, nooo.:) Now, I'm stuck doing something else.Lol but, ohhh well I like my new topic better anyways:)

2nd hour- P.E....well after goofing off in the locker room with Bailo I went out and put out my shoes..boring..lol & then we did our stretch thingys and people were questioning my authority when I stated pretty clearly not too...:D lol and then we did the set up thingy...A whole total of 12..haha embarassing..& then I got 1 pushup..now that was even more embarassing.:) LOl oh well, I don't care. Lol & muh ankle hurts..:( LOl

3rd hour- Civics...we did some worksheets..even though I looove this class..it was very dull today.:( Rae needz to come backk!!:(

4th hour- Algebra 2....I really dislike this class...not the subject..the teacher..He's unbelievably stupid..He thinks he knows it all. When I ask you a question..I don't want you to answer it with another stinking question!! & another thing ABSOLUTE VALUE WILL ALWAYS NO MATTER WHAT YOU SAY BE POSITIVE BECAUSE..EVEN THE BOOK SAYS SO!! HAVE YA TRIED READING TEACH? Gosh.I'm soooo annoyed. How can someone be sooo uneducated in the subject you're teaching. I ask him a question and he'll say well my cousin said..um, dude you need to say it..not yo stinking cousin. Grr.. at first, i felt sorry for the loser and even know I dislike him with a passion and he freaks me out soo very much I still put a smile on my face..so good morning!! what are we doing today? *five minute reply* Ohhhh..this sounds fun!!:) Ugg...I'm too nice. Lol:P

5th hour- CBA!!:) this is where I sit by KG and Tim lol he's hilarious. & I painted an adorably awesome picture of him and his future wifey atlanta...HAHA:d HE GOT SOO MADD.:) LOL!! FUNNN STUFFF!!

6th hour- AgSci&Tech...lammmmeeeeee...sub...lammmmeeerrrr...once again i haven't yet to learn anything. gr..:) lol

7th hour- Basketball!!:)
Funnnnn!!;) Lol

8th hour-Physical Science- the bombbb!!:D Lovedd ittt:) lol

& Cross-country practice..lets just not talk about this..but, I do have the best cross-country buddy ever:) & a pretty cool basketball coach and the cross-country coach..is cool 2 i guess. lol jk.

Well, that was my interesting day I guess..
Now I'm sitting here EATING MY STINKING AWESOME BOLOGNA SANDWHICH! yeahh:) lol & I did sing the bologna song while typing bologna all 3 times.:D Yeah..I'm just that talented.:)

Now I'm having a sudden crave for pork..freezer..here I come!:) lol

Steph Alderson is outttt.:)





MY GOD IS THE ONLY GOD! MY GOD IS AN AMAZING GOD! & I LOVE MY GOD!! &&&& GUESS WHAT ELSE!! HE LOOOOOVEEEESSS YOUUUU TOOOO! HE'S MY BEST FRIEND..AND HE CAN AND WILL BE YOURS TOO!:)

:)

Disgusting lil lalala:)

Okay..I really needa life!! lol

You Laugh.
I cry.
You smile.
I die inside.
You cry.
I get mad.
Why do I love you?
After that all happened?
Why to I feel I need you?
To get by...
You're not a christian..
you're not a nice guy..
you believe in sex..
you're a huge perv.
you take advantage of a girls every curve.
but..for some reason.
I'm attracted 2 you.
You're disgusting
You disgust me.
You pervert player, you.
I can't believe I could ever think you're cute.
After all the girls you've left behind.
They were all people..
Def. one of a kind.
You ruint there innocence.
You've ruint there lives.
You threaten them.
& then you say goodbye.
You leave them stranded there..
& they feel like they're stuck in a box..
and kind find the key to unlock..
they feel bad..
but, for some reason..
they still love you.
why is that?
because they gave you everything..
& u ruint them like that.
How could you?
You disgusting..
little....
lalala..laa..

:):):):):):):)

Yepp me being bored again.

You made me laugh.
You made me smile..
I just can't believe it took me awhile..to realize you're a player..
you pretty much got it written all over your face..
you're always saying..
don't hate the player..
hate the game.
They tried to tell me.
I didn't listen..I said whatever..
they said don't come crying back to me.
I told you so Stephanie.
I just laughed and said ok.
I didn't think it'd come to that day.
Well, here I am....right now.
Looking back and thinking woahh wow.
They were right..they always are.
& I know I'ma have to turn those tears into a scar.
because I have nothing now.
No friends at all..
The tears are coming down.
Just because I let God down.
I know better...it just took me awhile.
A long while..
& now I don't know what to do..
So, Lord..I'm gunna pray to you.
I know you'll forgive..and I can let my tears go.
Lord, I love you & I love that you love me..
No matter how much I let go.
So...if my friends don't have my back..
if they call me a fool.
I really don't care..I don't give a bull.
I have God in my life..He would want you to forgive.
It's your sins adding up..I'm not going to fib.
Unlike yall..someday when a shoulder...
I'll let you cry on mine.
I won't leave you just bc you didn't listen.
You'll always have me..forever. <3
Because unlike you. I don't hate.
Unlike you. I've learned God is great. <3 :)



Steph Alderson:)

Another Closed Door.

Yeah this is me being bored again.

"Was having a good day..
til you texted me..
thought everything was going smoothly
til ya said hey..it's over baybay
I understood..I'd knew ud do this from the start..
I just didn't realize that it'd hurt my heart.
always said..that wasn't possible..
but, i was wrong..and this totally uncool..
I thought it was different..I thought we were ok
but apparently somethings bothering you baby..
So it's alright..I'll walk away..
we can pretend it never happened from the get go..
I'll just let go...
& let you walk away.
Don't know what I did..don't know what I said..
Is it because I didn't wanna have sex?
bc if that's it..i'm glad it's over..
If that's why..you disgust me.
all you care about is that..
i'm gunna laugh when karma gets ya back.
You think you're cool..
I don't
I think your a self absorbed
little crap.
who's spoiled.
and always gets
this and that.
i'm tired of you
whyd i cry?
I'm glad we're finally saying goodbye
so walk away..don't even say hi..
you're not hurting me anymore..
you're just another..closed door."

...................

I am babysitting again..Hooray. While my mother is going to visit my aunt at the hospital..which I have been asking to do since before school started. I just wish I could skip school and stay there with her. I really do love school..but, until she's better..it's just not the place I want to be. I can't concentrate on my work anyways, so why does it matter. I only make people mad for not remembering things or for "ditching them at lunch" when I was really was just walking around not realizing anything people were saying..or anything but,...if that's what you want to think, go right ahead.

But, I'll be fine..God will heal her..He's amazing!!!!!

Steph Alderson is Out. :)

My thoughts confirmed.

♥ I have come to the realization that I am who I am - quirky and imperfect. I can't change just to make others happy, but I can become what God wants me to be. ♥ So all I gotta say is..deal with it. :)

I have been a little..pssh..a lot.. depressed lately..I let people get to me that I shouldn't of let. I forgot that God puts people into my life to help fulfill His will & takes out those who try to stop it. I also forgot who I was..& it got me in a dark place. but, I'm good now. Finally got everything back to the way it should be. & I'm glad. I really am tired of school but, I do realize that I do not need to rush it or sleep through it because I will someday regret it. I have realized that my actions and decisions not only hurt me but, others. I have realized that the devil takes advantage of all of my weaknesses & I need to learn to ignore it. I have also learned a lot, thanks to other christians that I <3 very dearly. I'm glad I fixed that mistake that I seemed to like so much the other day but, I must inform anyone who read that...that wasn't Steph Alderson speaking...that was the devil. I just typed it. I was stupid..didn't realize what I was doing but, I'm good now.

Back on my path.
Someone I love has some really tough things going on..got cancer again..has very little chance of making it. satan knew this really hurt me and he took advantage of it. & he did a really good job of it but, that aint happening again.

atleast..not on my watch!

Steph Alderson is Out.:)
God is great..:)

Failure! lol

Well, here I am..attempting to eat my lunch..yet another epic fail. It's my last day to have good food before school starts and half of my mouth is numb....thank you mr. dentist dude!! I really needed a shot in my mouth just for a dumb freaking filling. At my old dentist I didn't get the numb stuff or anything..I got 2 feel everything..fun stuff but, I rather it be like that so I can eat!!!:) Lol & now I'm attempting to eat and instead I'm biting my gums..which I'm not dentist but, I don't think that's very good......:)

Well, school tomorrow..I was excited but, now I really truly honestly don't wanna go!! I have realized recently that I absolutely hate school & I just wanna get it over with so I can go to college & get outta this place!!


Ok..so now I'm about to freaking cry..I gotta drink of dr. pepper and I just squirted it out like a freaking fish..guess where it went...my computer screen, my shirt...and more importantly my lunch..dagum! Now what am I going to eat.
Yet another epic fail brought to you by Steph Alderson..oh well, I'll be laughing about this 2morrow:)

Haha I <3 you God!!:)
Steph Alderson....the epic failure. :D

One Monday Morning At School...

Ok So on facebook I started a story and this is what happened-

On monday morning at school.....


Sarah-raelyn brought cookies...
Steph-and she didn't give Sarah's or Steph's to Mr. Whelch or Cody.
Shelby-and i brought ding dongs
Morgan-then morgan jumps outa nowhere
Janet-Sarah and Steph ate the chocolate chip cookies, before Mrs. Janet could eat any! :(
Steph-But, what Mrs. Janet doesn't realize is that Morgan stole all the cookies before we could bring her one...Shame on Morgan.:D
Doug-Even so, Fred a new kid in town brought enough cookies for the whole class. Freshly baked from his mother the night before to make it easier for his child to break the ice on making perhaps new friends.
Sarah-fred is so cool
Janet-that he went to Mrs. Janet's class and gave them cookies too!! He made 20 new friends in her class!!!
Steph-‎& he became Steph's new best friend!!:D
Sarah-and sarah beats up fred to prevent this new "friendship"...
Janet-Fred is so popular now!
Steph -Haha and then Steph,Fred, & SARAH become best friends:D
Janet-Is it a friendship???
Steph-I don't know..this fred guy sounds pretty dateable.:D Hahaha
Janet-Sarah's mother, Mrs. Janet, told her she couldn't date until she was 30.

Sarah-But steph and sarah both agree fred is too possessive and as they dump him he runs off into the sunset crying like a baby
Janet-Good thing, because Daddy was gettin' the gun!!!!!!!!!!!
Janet-Then Sarah and Steph remembered that they have another friend....that used to bring cookies.....
Sarah-what cookies???
Janet-Remember Sarah you began this with "raelyn brought cookies....."
Sarah-yeah but in truth she gave mine to a teacher...A TEACHER!!! :/
Janet-Raelyn brought the teacher, Mrs. Janet, chocolate chip cookies, then Sarah and Steph texted Fred to find out his friend, Cornileus new number. Sarah likes him, even though her mother told her she couldn't date until she was 30.
Steph-‎& Cornileus attempts to make Mrs. Janet accept him so he can date her darling daughter, Sarah but, it's going to take more than cookies to get on Mrs. Janet's good side!!:)
Janet-you got that right!! I don't fall for the sweet talkers no more!!!!
Steph-So Cornileus gets very depressed and starts writing zillions of icky love songs for Sarah but, what he doesn't know is that Sarah & Steph find icky gooey love stuff gross and weird.:D
Sarah-then cornileus goes and hides in a gopher hole until his mom finds him and gives him a lollipop to stop his tears...then steph and Sarah go bowling and Sarah wins!!! :D
Doug-Mean while, poor fred (victim of surcumstance) while running in the woods, comes across an opening with just one tree in the middle. Awkard as it looked to find something like that in the middle of woods, even more so was the tandlizing fruit that it bared..
Steph-‎& So Fred, no longer caring..since Sarah did break his heart and everything..decided he was a free man and he was going to try that tandlizing fruit!!!...what happened next..You will not believe!
Joann-DUN-DUN-DUN!!!(how do you spell dun-dun-dun?) *p.s: ashley wrote this comment :D*
Steph-asks Ashley, one of Mrs. Janet's old students whom had to move away out of state and never come back to visit her super awesome friends Steph & Sarah!! Lol:)
Sarah-Ahem...correction...long lost third cousin of Sarah all of a sudden pops up from a hole in the woods and Sarah and Ashley have a family reunion while Ashley decides to stay for good!!! :) true story!!
Steph-Steph decides that if Ashley tries to leave again, she shall use her ninja skillz to keep her in ar!!:D

The End to a very adorable story!
Wrote by Steph,Janet,Sarah,Doug,Joan,Ashley,Morgan,& Shelby.

:) They all lived happily ever after...except for Fred..who ate that fruit..and well, lets not make this happy story a sad one..
Steph is Out. <3:)

!!!:)

had fun at open house yesterday but, is not ready for school. I have recently realized that I do not want to get up early & I do not want to go to school period but, ohhh well 3 more years until I'm outta here!!!!!!!!!!:):):) Lol I'll miss it though...wow I can't make up my mind..

& I'm still thinking this so called mistake is a good mistake..if it's even a mistake.:) <3


My God is amazing! Can't wait for the back to school youth rally Wednesday!!:)

<3 <3 <3
Steph:)

Hahah:)

Well, I fixed my problems from yesterday but, what I'm wondering is...did I just make an even bigger one? Lol Ohhh well, I really don't care!!!!!:)

& for the idiots who think this chicks gunna change bc of some things..YOU'RE HILARIOUS!!:D

I love my amazing God!!:)

Steph..:)

"I'm sorry I'm bad..I'm sorry you're blue..I'm sorry about all the things I've said to you..and I know I can't take it back..."

I don't know how or why I'm letting this affect me but, I am...& the stupid thing has me crying. I haven't cried in a while..I was quite proud of myself..glad the folks are a sleep or I would be in my room crying even harder. I can't stand the confusion, the misunderstanding, my lack of being able to make the right decision...I just don't know who I am anymore. I just know one thing. I miss what used to be.:(

but, I do not however miss kurdt. I wish he'd leave already!


:(

I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue, I'm sorry about all things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back

It's on fire....:O...too hot! too hot!

Well, I'm am finally back home.
It is HOT!! Like sooooooooooooooo freaking totally HOT! outside! Hot outside!!!It's unbearable!! Omjj...I dislike this intense heat...What did we do to deserve this!?


Well, I'm getting off of here and taking an ice cold shower and then I'm taking a nap!!

Later!!:)
Steph Alderson<3

Gunpowder & Lead!

Is mad. very very mad. Why are freaking people stupid. Why can't you believe in God? Why do you always have to text me! & even know I personally don't know anybody that rapes innocent people I still find you all to be complete idiots.
I also feel that when you forward a chain letter asking someone to pray for someone, ya don't message the person back saying no you don't believe in God. That's just wrong. If ya aint gunna send it ya don't need 2 message the person back saying ya aint. You're so dumb. I will pray for you.. Uggh! I'm just so erked right now. I'm ready to graduate and move!! I don't really care where anymore just far away from this dumb place. I'm not dumb, I know there is people like this everywhere. I just want away. Heck if I have to live in a shack in Africa, then so be it! Raping innocent people? Abducting? Is this what life's supposed to be like? Not according to the Bible. I can't believe people could do things like this. I am completely angered. "I'm gunna show em what little girls are made of..GUNPOWDER AND LEAD." >:|. You don't believe in God??? THAT'S YOUR PROBLEM! BUT, LET ME TELL YA, YOU'RE REALLY MISSING OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU THINK SEX AND RAPE IS COOL????? WELL WOWW. YOU ARE ABSOLUTELY DISGUSTING. YOU THINK IT'S FUNNY THAT SOMEONE HAS CANCER?? WELL, MAYBE YOU SHOULD EXPERIENCE IT FOR YOURSELF AND SEE IF YOU THINK IT'S THAT FUNNY. YOU THINK IT'S FUNNY SOMEONE HAS A HEATSTROKE? THEN YOU'RE REALLY MESSED UP IN THE HEAD. & if you think those things are funny, then PLEASE I AM BEGGING YOU. DON'T TALK TO ME AND STAYY THE HECK OUTTA MY LIFE!

& ON OTHER TERMS...DEVIL GET BEHIND ME AND FREAKING STAY THERE. The Bible says that you have to!

& also please pray for Tyler D. and Mary A.
Thank you!<3


An angry 14yr old is out.
Steph Alderson.

Patience?

A little thought about what I think about things...
First off, I don't care if I think too much, I enjoy thinking in there's nothing in the rule book that says I can't think.
So here I go.
What's wrong with being single? Why can't people believe that not everyone in the world has to have a crush on somebody? I really don't see the reasoning behind people's auctions. Why date just to date? Why can't we wait for someone we actually love? Why is it so bad to say you hate someone but, not bad when we say i love you? Technically, if you don't mean it with all of your heart it's bad too. People seem to think that it's the end of the world if they're alone for a while. I rather be alone for all of my life then to be with someone I don't love or someone that doesn't love me back or to date a bunch of meanless people. I really don't believe in the point. So if I'm 85 before I get married then so be it. I truly don't care. I'm going to be patient because that's what God wants us to do. There's someone out there for all of us..& I rather wait & let them find me instead of vice versa.

That's all I really gotta say.
Steph Alderson is Out.:) <3
My God is great!!

8]

:D Church was amazing!!!!!:)God is amazing!!!!!!!!!!!:) &

Devil get behind me! & stay there because that's where you belong! Jesus is my Lord & saviour!

Michael is going 2 be an amazzzzing preacher!:)




I'ma Outt.

:(

I am confused..Very, Very, Confused.

This is all I really have to say.

Superduperness.:)

Well, I've had a super duper day so far..:) & I've decided to stop wasting my time typing about some idiot who goes against everything I believe in. Anyways, I've spent my day w/ dad & the twins & this weekend I get to hang w/ Bailo!!!:) Lol Can't wait..gunna be some gangsta fun..LOL:D Can't wait 4 our gangster day September 4th!!!!:):) Lol

‎"She was blaring Charlie Daniels, yelling, Turn it up! They raised her up a lady but theres one thing, They couldnt avoid...Ladies love country boys!!!:)"
^ & yes that is my ringtone:)

"They never understand
why their princess falls
For some camouflage britches
and a southern boy drawl"

"She's comin home to visit
n holdin the hand
of a wild eyed boy
with a farmers tan!!"

:):)Off to complete a very awesome day Serving my awesome God!!!:)

He is REAL!!!!!

Well after going to sleep around 3 this morning, I think I just might be one of the grouchiest,hungriest,and upset 14 yr olds you will meet.:D haha but, oh well..I'll get better after I eat something.:P lol

Well, last night the idiot stuck up, over confident, buttface called me and texted me saying blah blah blah why won't you go out with me blah blah blah. My answer is simple. I asked you if you believed in God. You said no. I asked why? You said you've been just fine withou relidion..(YOU DIDN'T EVEN SPELL IT RIGHT!>:() & You asked if I did..& I do recall saying HECK YES I DO!! ...So my reasoning is quite simple. You don't believe in MY GOD...I DON'T BELIEVE IN DATING YOU. You don't believe in religion?? I DON'T BELIEVE THAT YOU CHANGED. You don't believe that I don't have feelings for you?? I DON'T BELIEVE THAT YOUR REALLY HUMAN. Mhm..I do believe in God..ya wanna know why???BECAUSE HE IS 1000000000000000 AND ZILLION X THT REAL!!!!!!!!! & I DO BELIEVE IN RELIGION..YA WANNA KNOW WHY???? BECAUSE IT IS ALSO REAL!! && I BELIEVE THAT YOU DIDN'T CHANGE...YA WANNA KNOW WHY?? BECAUSE EVERYBODY KNOWS YOU ONLY DATE FOR SEX...EVERYBODY!! BC UHH..YA MIGHT NOT KNOW THIS BUT, THAT LAST CHICK YA BROKE UP WITH...YEAHH THAT WAS MY COUSIN!!!!!!!!! & EVEN IF YOU DIDN'T I STILL WOULDN'T DATE YOU BC YOU'RE STUCK UP..OVERLY CONFIDENT. &&&&& YOU ARE NOT A CHRISTIAN..YOU DON'T BELIEVE THAT MY FATHER, THE KING OF KINGS IS REAL..WHEN HE SOOO TOTALLY IS!!!! Excuse my yelling...I honestly don't care if it bothered you...It stabbed a zillion invisible knives in my heart when he told me he didn't believe in God. Not because I liked him bc I soooo did not like him like that but, because how could you not believe in something that is sooo real?? It hurts bad..but, I will pray for him..I will pray that he gets soo blessed by God he never goes back to his old ways!!!!!!


I love you God!!! You are sooooooo real!!!!:):):)

& You are AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!!!:D:D:D

Steph Alderson is Out..:)

"Sun's still shining when I close my eyes..." :)

Well, I had a super duper day here on earth..:)
I started out babysitting..it's not as bad as it sounds.:D & then daddy got home and we watched jeopardy together and it was the teen version and i totally got 3 questions right..haha yeahh, doesn't sound like much but, more than usual!!:) & then Kassandra came over and we hung for a couple hours and then she went home. & now I'm ready for the bowling thing tomorrow!!!:D Team Chuck Norris..is totally gunna kick butt!!! Hahahahah:) Yeah..they don't know about the name yet:P Hahahah Anyways, it's me, Rae, Wes, & the person i dislike most but I'm going to have to suck it up for a few hours Kurdt. Can't stand the kid, never will. He's one of the few people I can't stand. I wish he wasn't on our team..this is all Rae's fault..she did this without acknowledging me. I am a little irritated because this is the over confident jerk I was talking about & I am very frustrated and Rae knew how I disliked him & now he thinks I like him. You can not even guess how much this erks me. >:\ Steph Alderson is quite erked. Lol If that's even a word but, I'm a good person & I will be nice & pray that God helps me through this. I really can't stand this kid. Really really really..It goes way back but, I've already forgave & God is amazing!! & will help me through tomorrow...

Well, Steph Alderson's out to go live life,make mistakes,<3 God,be goofy,be a 14 yr old, & to cry her heart out, laugh until her sides hurt, and to be herself...because who is more qualified to be her than herself? :)

Confidence is everything.<3
My GOD IS AMAZZZZZZING!:)

Confidence is love!:)

I admire Confidence, It determines everything. If your confident in yourself,confident in God, confident in others, confident in your team, you'll go far. Plus, who wants someone who gripes, complains, puts themselves and others down all the time? Confidence is the answer..Confidence is love.:)

I have recently decided what bothers me most in people. People who aren't confident at all. & People who are wayyy too confident! I have friends that are both and those are the friends that always bother me so much! When I say you're cool, I don't want to hear some sob story about why you are not cool! & I also don't want to hear you brag about how you are cool. I can't stand it when some one is too confident in themselves. Especially when you call and ask me to date you and when I say no and you say why not and then start a mile long list of how you're better than the others blah blah blah..I don't care!! You brag about everything. About how you did soo good in sports, about how well you fit in, about how all the "chicks" love you and you don't understand why I don't. Haha. Well, I have my reasons. Why would I want to date a stuck up jerk? Haha. yeahh people crack me up!!:D Yeah, one of my friends found out he asked me and was shocked that I said no. Haha they thought I'd gone crazy. but, truth is I don't want to date someone who thinks of themselves as "It" but, I don't want someone who isn't confident in themselves at all..I don't know, lol but, this is why I haven't dated anyone since 7th grade! & it's not like this with dating either, I really can't stand friends like that either!!!! or relatives, or even teachers but, I don't really have any teachers that are overly confident so I guess I'm lucky.:) Lol & I don't know what I'm honestly saying, I just know that I want to be around people that are confident in themselves and others and God but, I don't want someone that's too confident? If that makes any sense at all. & considering I "think" a lot and most of my "thoughts" are wrong, I am probably just "thinking incorrectly" once again. Haha I'm jk:D I know I'm thinking correctly.:)

Well, Steph Alderson is out!!!:)
The bomb diggity< & that aint being over confident!!
& Ninja Chuck Norris< okay..maybe that's a littel over confident..:D haha:)

MY GOD IS AMAZZZZZZZZZZINGGGG!:):):):)

:D

Well, I'm confused but, still glad I have God in my life. because I had the oppurtunity to do things last night that could've screwed up my life but, I was smart enough not to and I listened to God instead of Satan. & I really don't see why satan loves be so cruel to me...what did i ever do to the nasty serpent? ha. For loving God?? I'm NOT sorry satan..did your mommy not love you when you were a wittle baybay so now you have to hate everyone...Wahhh WAhhh WAhh!! Haven't you learned..that no matter what you've been through..you have no excuse to hate or treat everyone cruel?? Oh well, maybe someday you will but until then...STAY OUTTA MY LIFE!!!!!!!!! That is all I have to say to you.

& to God, I love You so super duper much!!:)

Well, Steph Alderson is Outt.:):):)
My GOD IS AMAZZZZZZIIIIIIIIIINGGGGG!!!:)

Woahh Woahh Woahhh:)

Steph Alderson had a wonderful day at the dentist...Hahaha..Note my sarcasm!!:D Dentist appointments are never fun....but, had fun w/ grandma....I swear that ladys trying to make me fat though!!! She makes food...too good!:P

Anyways, this chick had a wonderful day...despite being irritated for being called a liar. If there is one freaking thing I don't do..it's to lie. I'm honest...sometimes too honest and if you don't believe me..guess what!!!..I HONESTLY don't care.:) Anyways, apparently I post facebook statuses talking smack about muh momma..hahahaha I don't!!! Yeah, I might gripe about some things on here but, not on facebook and not about my mom. Besides, the woman is friends with me on facebook! If I talked smackk about her she'd see it. Grr. & then I was accused of other things. Lol Anyways, just so ya know Steph Alderson is not dishonest...she's bluntly honest..unless, I have to lie..like not by choice..ya know what I mean.

Anyways, I hope I get 2 go to open gym 2morrow bc I need muh practice!! but, it's all up to whether Kels goes or not..If she can take me than I get to..if she can't then I'm stuck home.:(

Oh and those who want to know how my dentist appointment went..I have 1 cavity..bleghh:\ I do all this brushing my teeth and I still getta cavity..Blehh stupid toot 31..:P LOL:)

Well, I'ma gett offa here bc this chick wants some gummy worms!!:)


MY GOD IS THE MOST SUPER DUPER AWESOME WONDERFUL AMAZING SMART TALENTED HEALING PROTECTING SUPERTASTIC....FACE IT MY GOD IS THE ONLY GOD..MY GOD IS REAL...& I LOVE MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:):):):):):):):)

Steph Alderson....the bomb diggity..the ninja chuck norris...the stupid blonde kid..shanaenae...is Outt!!!!:D

:):):):)

Well, I did as I said I would and I feel a lot better!:) I actually went outside today to do something besides practicing basketball!!:) Hahaha Ya know, God is amazing...I don't care what you think honestly and I probably never will..:) I finally made satan leave me alone!!!:) So he can just go jump offa cliff like I said in one of my other notes. I feel great..ofcourse who wouldn't? God loves you! & God loves me!:) Why wouldn't we be glad??? :)

wow...It's amazing how that can make you feel!!!:)

Well,
Steph Alderson is Out..:)

:):):)

"I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life, It’s like I just stepped outside, When everything was going right And I know just why you could not Come along with me This was not your dream, But you always believed in me!" ♥

I have recently realized that I'm letting satan win. I've gave up, I've quite, I've said yes to the things I should've said no to and vice versa. I know all I have to do is pray for forgiveness...but, I feel like it's just gunna happen again. I'm going to start running. I'm going to start swimming. & I'm going to get lost once again. My wall keeps tumbling down everytime I try to rebuild it but, I have to stay strong & get through this. I'm tired of people asking me what's wrong..I don't want to burden people with my thoughts,worries,fear, or anything really. Plus, once you tell one person..the whole world knows. It's just how things are. Drama & gossip is never going to go away. There are too much people who don't care anymore and I think I'm on that path if not already there. I don't like where I'm going. I want to pray for forgiveness. I want to start over...but, I'm to the point where I feel it's too late. I've read the Bible, I know it's not too late..but, what you know and what you feel are 2 completely different things. Right now, I'm trying to keep my self sane..but, I feel I'm not succeeding. I type these blogs because after a while...thinking isn't enough. & I've thought way too much lately. It's ok because once I stop being a freaking idiot and pray for forgiveness and truly mean it..everything will be good unless I keep falling for satans trap which I have done a lot lately! So here I am..sitting at home trapped in my patheticness. but, I will rejoice and be glad. I will pray for forgiveness & I will do it now.

My God is amazing! He loves me, even know I'm an idiot. & I love Him too!:)

Steph Alderson Is Outt.:)

Home- Blake Shelton

Home-Blake Shelton.

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I wanna go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another airplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky I know
But I wanna go home
I’ve got to go home

Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home


And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
This was not your dream
But you always believed in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
In even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel alone
And I wanna go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I'm coming back home
Let me go home
It will all be all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home



Steph Alderson iz out.

C0nfuzzzionn!

Well, I've learned that I really don't know who I've become. I know who I used to be. I know what I used to think but, the thoughts that have been running through my head..they don't seem like mine. Okay, I'm not trying to sound like a freak..What I mean is that I am thinking the things...they just aint same things I used to think & I don't like it. I don't why I can't hold it together. I smile so that people will leave me alone and shutup and stop asking me questions and it's worked quite well these past few months but...how is it helping me any? Holding it all in behind a smile? I've always been told that when the going gets rough..smile. & so I try to and I really don't understand that statement anymore..It all seems unreal right now. I don't want to do anything, go anywhere...If I'm not laying on my bed sleeping, I'm in a different world..Yeah I do what my parents say and I work around the house but, the whole time I'm just counting down how long it'll be until I can sleep again. They say the first step to recovery is admitting it..well, I admitted it..I've tried to change it but, it aint working..and I don't like to give up so I will keep praying and fighting satan who seems to really want to bring me down and destroy me right now......but, I got Jesus's Blood Running through my veins so satan can go jump offa cliff and leave me alone.

My God is truly awesome!
Steph Alderson is Outt. Literally.

A little hill in the road race of life......

You're running...increasing your pace by the second..knowing that as long as you run you don't have to face reality. Also knowing, that the moment you stop reality will smack you right in the face...So you keep running saying yes just to get people to leave you alone so you can run.....& when you get out of breath and you stop for a drink and instead of love you drink sin. Sound familiar? Instead of being on fire with God's love..you're on fire with satans sin?

You're swimming..you never want to get out you keep going on and on until you realize your stuck under the water..you can't get out...you realize that instead of enjoying everything God gave us..you gave your heart to one thing..whether it's swimming,running,food,some idiot guy, etc. You gave your heart away...to the wrong person,place,or thing. When ya shoulda gave it to God! You shouldn't of been distracted...but, no you kept "running"..you kept "swimming"..you just kept on with your sin not caring the pain your causing for yourself and others. but, you don't care because all you'll have to do is say sorry after ya do it right? Haha. I guess ya could but, is it the right thing to do? You soon realize you have this headache...then you realize...this headache aint gunna go away on it's own. So you pray but, do you really mean it? Why do we always ask God for stuff and never thank him for what He's done and is still doing? We only go to him when we're in trouble..& even know God forgives..I still don't think it's right....I mean God created us..we never thank him..we never tell him how thankful we are...we just ask for protection, help, etc. without ever saying 'thank you'..

I've been that runner running from everything..and that swimmer staying in the water instead of doing what I should've done. & well, it's not fun..you don't realize who all you hurt..how bad you treated God..or anything until it feels like it's too late but, it's not..Yeah, you probably lost a couple of friends but, were they really that good of friends if they took advantage of you when you were depressed or ran away? I don't know..when I find out all of the answers to these questions..I'd be more than happy to share them but, right now I'm rebuilding my wall..the wall I worked so hard to build..but, I miss placed that one brick and it all came tumbling down...This post is mainly for me..if ya know what I mean..than great...atleast I won't be the only person feeling insane beyond belief....Another statement I'd like to make..is it's great to be building your own wall with your own bricks..but, it's nice when someone helps you build that wall and shares there bricks..by that I mean a friend..a friend that stayed with you through thick and thin,never took advantage of you in anyway,and if they thought they did they apologized repeatedly, a friend who you know prays for you and loves you, a friend who told you what they thought about you instead of telling everyone else..It's great to have a friend like that..even if you feel you don't deserve them. I was blessed with 3. & a loving family. Reality has smacked me right in the face. Church camp was amazing and honestly, I rather go back and stay there because..there wasn't as much distractions there..there wasn't that bad friend and satan that tried to destroy your wall and so on but, oh well. Church is amazing & I love my awesome God!:) He's done so much and he's forgave me yet again....I don't know why he'd want to but, He did & that is why I conclude this blog that has probably bore you to death..even know I could care less...with one statement which, is actually a fact. God is AWESOME!!:)

Steph Alderson is Outt. <3 <3 <3 :):):)