How can a world be so small...when reality is so large?

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light” (Matthew 11:28-30). We have no reason to worry, God will take care of everything...We just need to talk to Him. ♥ :) God is amazing!!!:D

So...after remembering this, I haven't been worrying, I've been letting God take control!:)

My day was amazing!!!
I've also discovered that I strongly dislike Mrs. G's Pre-Ap English Class. I've realized she's one of those who only agree with certain things and will not listen or agree with anything else. Everyone has the right to express their opinion...She doesn't have to necessarily agree with it, she could atleast listen. Another thing, the only thing she truly likes is History. If we don't agree w/ her outlook on it, we're wrong. I have my opinions. I'm aloud to talk about what I think on something we're learning. I am uncomfertable in these situations. I feel she's been judging people, which is a sin.& isn't her right. Since she's so big on rights...(hints Bill of Rights) then she should know that she shouldn't judge or talk quite cruel about people. It just upsets me to see people like this. People who act like they stand for so much, when in reality..they stand for so, so little. I will just keep my head held high for, I can do that and if she has a problem with that, then I will simply go and finish my work in the office because, I have too much pride..teacher or no teacher..to sit there and let someone tell me all I believe is wrong. I will talk to God about it and He will take care of it.:) I <3 my awesome God!!

The rest of the day was truly wonderful.:) I had another day on Earth..Thank you Jesus!:0) & I had a blast....

How can a world be so small...when reality is so large?
Something to ponder over, I assume.

I'm trying to keep a smile on my face, it just really upsets me when people are like this. I'm not just upset with her because of some things she said to me but, of things she's said to others. I know where I stand in this world. I can accept that everyone isn't going to understand. I also understand that the teachers probably don't realize these things, for you have to be in a classroom with someone..as a student of course to understand my thoughts and realizations.


My God is great! & I'm no complainer..:) Even though, the devil tried to bring me down...I kept going UP!;) I love ya Jesus!! I love you God! My amazing heavenly Father!:)

I love following God's plan for me.:)

Can't Hold Me Back!(:

I had a good day, been having a great last few days. I feel like I'm constantly being tested and it's a lot of pressure but, I can't let it bring me down. I have to keep a positive attitude, a smile on my face, & continue following God's plan. I have to ignore the people who judge me, I have to be myself, & I just gotta keep on loving God with all of my heart!:) I know satan's puttin' all these obstacles and all these bad things in front of me hoping, I'll "stop by and pick them up" but, in a road race, you never stop to pick up trash! You keep running til the race is over! & that's exactly how my road race of life is gunna be!:) I know I may only be 14yrs old but, I am not "brainwashed" as some might put it, I'm not confused, I'm not making this up. God is real! & I'm not judging anyone who doesn't believe what I do. but, I don't go around dissing you and your believes, why you dissin' me? I aint stoppin for a break..I'm running, running until God tells me to stop! God will keep me strong! He is my father & I love Him with my whole heart!!:) So backkk awayyy satan!!!!

1st hr - Turned in my super duper short story & read some story:) & checked out a library book.

2nd hr - P.E we did pushups,sit ups w/ some ball thing, jump roping(epic failure on my half), lunges...:), &&& some jump thing.. All together it woke me up:) lol

3rd hr - Civics, did a worksheet over the Bill of Rights, I know more about this stuff than I thought!:)

4th hr - Algebra2....went over how to graph these things..

5th hr - made up what i'm going to miss wednesday.

6th hr - AgSci&Tech..defined vocab. (substitute)

7th hr - Basketball....Fun stuffz.

8th hr - Physical Science - reviewed for test.:)

I had an excellento day & I didn't let none of that evil stop me from what God wanted me to do!

I <3 you God!!:) & I love you Jesus!!
Steph Alderson:D

..Basketball Practice 2morrow!

My God is Mighty to save!!!!!!!!!!!!!:):):)

Yesterday was supertastic:) ..a word that will be come an official word someday..just you wait!:)
I woke up 'round lunch time & then cleaned my room..:( but, got done just in time to watch the Razorback game!!!!:):):) Can't believe they lost! but, they led a killer first half, they'll win the next one!!:) I hope bama goesss dowwwwnnnn this year...pretty soon! lol & then we went to see muh aunt..she looks wayy dif..kinda scary but, we talked and stuffz then we went to town & then we got home & ate pizza:) & then I woke up and am having a super duper day so far.:)

I love Jesus!!! My most wonderful brother!!!:D :D :D :D


"My Saviour, He can move the mountains,
My God is Mighty to save,
He is Mighty to save.
Forever, Author of salvation,
He rose and conquered the grave,
Jesus conquered the grave."

Steph Alderson :D

A Wonderful Day...Ending What I Made Into A Horrible Week. :D

Today was super duper excellento!!:)
I talked to God & we got some things straight!! I <3 my awesome God!!!!!!!:):):)

1st hr - Worked on my awesome short story...Lol It is an action story but, Mrs. G said it has to teach a life lesson so it has a corny ending.:( Lol:)

2nd hr - P.E we played basketball...I don't think my team ever one but, in our hearts we did!!:)

3rd hr - Civics....Btw, I got homework in that class...:D

4th hr - Algebra 2!!:) I accidently brought a bag of popcorn and Mr. W accidently popped it..:) It was yummy:)

5th hr - CBA-- Freeeee dayyyyyy:) ohh yeahh:)

6th hr - AgSci&Tech..I was helping Rae w/ a problem she had

7th hr - Basketball... fun stuff!!:) you wouldn't believe how fast it went by, I was shockeddd!! lol

8th hr- science....we made rocketsssssss!!!!:)

My day was absolutely wonderful & I thank the Lord for another super day on Earth:)


:D Steph Alderson...;):):):)

"And if you don't like it, I don't care!!! I'm going to sing about my Jesus EVERYWHEREEEE!!!" :):)

Oh yeahhz Lamar beat Lavaca!! Whoooootttt!:D

>:(

Isn't it cruel, how you think you know someone? Think they're your friend. Think you can trust them and then at the end everything you thought turned out to be completely wrong? Well, that's about how it is right now. but, it's ok because I'm through. I've lost every single bit of respect for this person & don't get me wrong. I'll still do the Christian thing & be nice but, I'm done other than that. If they want to talk to me, they can talk to me first. Otherwise, we won't talk at all. I'm 110% ticked! & I'm just about through will all of this crap.



Oh & btw..the whole "take a few breathes thing..DOESN'T WORK!*

Steph Alderson

:D :D :D

Wow.!! Ok, so when I got home I immediatly went to my bed...layed down & went to sleep! That was around 4:45-5pm lol & I woke up about 15 minutes ago and checked my phone which said 7:30 and I didn't realize it was 7:30pm...so I got up, obviously furiated, and looked for mother, whom by the way, was at my Aunt Mary's helping her with her shower & things. Anyways, after searching with not luck of finding mom, I called her and she was like, "Steph, Calm down!!" I said, "How am I supposed to calm down? It's 7:30!" Mother laughed, "Steph it's 7:30pm!!" Me slightly calming down, "Oh....ok, well....see ya later!" Hahahahaha Yeapp...and now I still feel like it's Thursday!!. Lol:)

Anyways, the rest of my day was good, putting aside first hour, I was still a little depressed over my aunt and everything. But, my day got better until the end..when I got depressed again. & that's why I had went to my room and went straight to sleep. My parents keep talking about it...as if it's a dinner conversations. I wish they'd stop talking about it in front of me. I lost it when mom said it one time & I was like "MOMMMM! I'm sick & tired of hearing this crap!!!!!" & I ran out the door. I feel like I'm going crazy. It's amazing how one little remark or word can bring a person down when they're offguard. God is amazing & we should never, for one moment take out out anger like I did. I should've been calmer, explained to mother why it's bothering me, & I should've prayed but, I let the devil take over & I didn't. My mistake. but, God forgives!!!!!!!!:)

Teens for Christ was good today..& the module tests were easy..lunch was decent...& now I'm exhausted again!!...Lol:)

Steph Alderson is out!!:D

Sljdalfjsfdljfslfjlsjf... jumbled up mess:)

I don't know what I'm typing...I don't know why...I 've found myself absolutely bored and typing with my eyes close...which will explain any typing mistakes.....I'm soo confused..I don't know whether to be crying or to be happy...I just don't now. I've tried taking breaths as a wise person once otld me...like uhhmm idk how many hours ago bc my eyes are closed lol neways the whole taking a few breathes thingy helped me fele better but, stil didn't help that much...I mean it didn't calm me down. I feel like urling up in a ball and crying but, I'm confused...shouldn't I be happy that my aunt will be living with God? I just wish she had more time...I don't want her to go yet. Ohmygosh, listen to me! She hasn't even died yet and here I am talking as if she had. I'm losing it....that's all gotta say...losing it bad. My mom was on her way home and then my grandma called mom telling her she couldn't tell grandpa what the doctors said bc she's worried it will give him another heart attack..he's already survived two..but, mom said he has to know & so she went back to their house & I'm worried....I just wish this wasn't happening because even though we weren't really 'close'...I can't stand to see so many people hurting. I know where she's going but, my family does not. They don't believe in the things I do..no matter how hard I try..so I've resorted to just trying my best and hoping my decisions and actions will help wake them up and I pray for them but, that's all I really can do. I'm just....sooooooooo confused... *ok time to open eyes..(funny noises outside)lol* & I don't know what to do. I don't know what to say to them...I don't know what I'm going to say the next time I see my aunt..What do you say to someone who could die at any moment? Should you be normal? Should you never leave their side? I don't know....All I can do is pray. My God is awesome!! This is all apart of His plan!

Steph Alderson

My Father:)....The King of Kings!

My day was me temporarily rotting if that makes any since..Lol atleast that's how it felt to me. but, it was mainly just me riding a very lammmeee roller coaster..of emotions:(

Anyways, so my day was a drag..sometimes I felt like smiling, the next I felt like crying. My day summed up to be an okey dokey day..I had enough laughs to cover up the sadness.:) & then I get home & my dad...my dad who can talk about death as if it's a book report..randomly tells me that my mom called earlier and my aunt has anywhere from 2 months-2yrs to live & ha! How in the world, is that a dinner conversation???? It's not his fault though..He didn't think before he spoke. & So I was like really...Finished what I was doing & went in my room..where my eyes started raining...but, not the fun rain that makes pretty flowers): But, it's ok...I pray she goes to Heaven & I pray that she enjoys the short time she has left & I also know she's going in to a better place to live w/ my father, the king of kings!! I would've liked to be closer to my aunt but, the fact that I had the privalige to be kin to her and to be able to call her my aunt is quite enough. How many people can say that their aunt is strong? Many! But, how many can say that theirs is a strong, Christian woman whom battled cancer & never gave up her faith??? Not many. I'm still hurt but, I know this is all apart of God's plan. The devil is trying to turn me against my father but, the devil can't succeed. Because God said that once we give our all to him, the devil can't mess w/ us no more! Not his exact words but, a summary. I just pray that my mother, especially. & the rest of my family can look at it in the same point of view I can. I pray extra hard for my mom and all my aunts sisters and brothers...and children. & I pray for Grandpa & Grandma. I know death is a part of our cycle here on Earth..a part of God's plan but, it still hurts but, you have to fight through all of the devils evil attempts to turn away from God & you have to find peace and pray for them. You need to be somewhat happy for them..They get to live w/ your father & as a Christian, you know that, that father of yours is a GREAT man!! God!!:)

Steph Alderson Is OUT.

September 20, 2010

Ha.
Hada good day..pplez crack me up!!
Ya know, yad think it'd be an akward kinda day considering everyone was sorta kinda mad but, I think today everyone was nicer than normal...who knows...might jus be me. Lol & newayz..
1st hr - We fixed sentence errors..and we read some story called Marigolds. It's totally depressing!! Hellooo??? I want to read a book that'll make me laugh or teach me something or about God but, I prefer nondepressing selections when I read!!! Lol But, Mrs. Gregory's all for scary & depressing books!! Lol:P

2nd hr - P.E, we played some sorta game..called...pickle. Bahaha..still cracks me up!!!:P I wish I could of took P.E w/ out the rest of my class. It's not them, it's me!! I needa break from my class!!! I'm not strong enough to smile ALL the time. Haha:D Oh wellz Ima big girl & besidez P.E was fun.

3rd hr - Civics..antifederalists or federalists? you decide. Idk...Henry & the other dude seemed to have a very good debate.

4th hr - Algebra 2..I honestly did absolutely nothing & the guy gave us peanut butter cookies..tasted more like dog crap.:(

5th hr - CBA....Easy Sneezy:)

6th hr - AgSci&Tech....We just wrote down notes bout ffa.

7th hr - Basketball..fun..UNLVs made me wanna puke a lil but, that's what I get for eating chocolate before basketball practice, I did it to myself. but, I gotta hang wit Brookee!!!:D then at 2:05 we hada g.t meeting..boring.

8th hr - Science..we watched some science video thing. & went ove Newtons 3 Laws.

& then I had basketball practice & the first time I looked at a clock after that it was 5:30 but, I don't know what time it actually ended....Lol

Well, I'm babysitting:( & I'm quite exhausted...& I'm waiting for mommy to get home but, I don't want to hear another reminder of how ill my aunt is. I just pray for a miracle.

Well, I'm off....to...I don't know. Lol
Nothing to read, nothing to eat, nothing to do but, I could READ MY BIBLE!:) Because that's something that'll never bore me. Bc MY GOD IS AWESOME!:):)

Steph Alderson is Out! :)

:( :(( :(

My mother and aunt b and aunt a all went to try to persuade my aunt mary ( the one w/ cancer) to move in w/ my grandpa and grandmother. I think they accomplished their goal bc when I called mommy they were packing her stuff. She really needed to get away from that man. The man who lied to her & broke his vowels. People in this world are so cruel. :(

Atleast she'll live the little time she has left with her family & she'll die knowing she was loved.

I just wish she wasn't leaving so soon...I'm not ready. :(

Atleast, she'll be living in Heaven! <3

My God is amazing!

Steph Alderson:(

Pray!!! :)

My days been a constant race.
Haven't really had much of a break.
Sure I've been on facebook but, mainly from my phone.
I was having an okey dokey day til we got home & I get a text from my cousin Elizabeth telling me to tell mom aunt m's being rushed to the hospital. I told mom and she called some people & it turns out she's in very very poor health. Her stupid husband and his mother left her abandoned by herself in a camping trailer thingy when she can't even walk on her own. She went days, no telling how long w/out showers and my aunt audra just so happen to go by and visit bc she was worried about her and found her extremely dehydrated and sick and my aunt m has cancer this is her 2nd go round & we don't think she's going to make it. All we can do right now is pray for a miracle. I can't believe her husband did that to her. Abandoned her in her time of need...Is that how all guys are?? Maybe, I should never get married. If this is how the male species is...then why waste my time? I can adopt, I can put my heart and soul all in God & Jesus & help with missionaries and stuff instead. I think that's what I want to do. Better that than give my heart so someone that'll just abandon me like that and leave me to die. I'm confused right now... Just how scary is it in the real world? After you finish school....do you end up in a hell whole? I guess I'll just have to continue my path and find out for myself. Surely, not everyone in the world is like this dude, right? God wouldn't allow that..Right? So many unanswered questions...So many tears...All I can do is pray! When you're busy pray! Not busy? Pray! Happy? Pray! Sad? Pray! Mad? Prayyy!!! No matter what the situation,,,pray! Talk to Jesus!

If you're feeling blue like me then pray.
It's amazing what the Lord can do.
Steph Alderson is out.

Somethin' to be tired of...:)

I'm insane. Tired of not being able to face the truth tired of not being able to say what I think how I feel. Tired of laughter and tears and smiles and sadness and people's pain and craziness and not being able to stand up for what you believe in tired of words always having to spelled one way and how u can't use run on sentences or txt wordz on ur testz i'm tired of capital letters i'm tired of everything. i just wanna be me. tired of being told no and being told yes tired of getting put down when i'm feeling best...tired of judgement and disgusting pepople. tired of not being able to cry without being questioned..tired of people thinking they're better tahn everybody and thinking they're the top of the world. i'm tired of pple being judged bc they're a boy or bc they're a girl. i'm tired of not being able to laugh during class without being warned to be quiet. i'm tired of not being able to sleep in as long as i want to. i'm tired of yelling when everyone else whispers i'm tired of wearing tennis shoes when i wheter wear slippers. i'm tired of birds. i'm tired of bees. i'm tired of copycats. stop acting like me! i'm tired of fakes. i'm tired of flakes. i'm tired of plain. i'm tired of whack. i'm tired of moo. i'm tired of quack. i'm tired of late night movies. i'm tired of what is and what isn't groovy. i'm tired of selfishness and concieted laughs. i'm tired of being bored and not having a blast. I'm tired of a lot but, I a lot I have been given. I thank the Lord for giving me everything when I had nothing. I think the Lord for making a pebble like me into something. I love you Lord with all my heart. Me & You will never part. You are amazing! Thanks for everything! Thank you for giving me things to be tired of when I could just be another rock on the road. I love you Lord!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:)

Jesus is AMAZZZIIINNNNNGGGGGGG!!:)
Steph Alderson

Random Note thingy mcbob.

A random note I filled out to cope with my boredom. :) lol

Your ex, do they still like you?
Idk..Really don't care.

If you could, would you go on a date with the last person you texted?
Uhhh....Why in the world would I ever want to date Kass? I mean ewww!! Lol:P She's a chickk.

What if your boyfriend/girlfriend went through your cellphone?
Well, I don't have a "boyfriend/girlfriend" but, if someone did go through my cell phone, with my permission of course, I wouldn't care. I have nothing to hide.

Do you have someone who you can be your complete self around?
Yeapp.

Are you angry with someone right now?
At someone? Nope...not that I can think of.

Did anything wake you up in the middle of the night?
Yes:( A horrrrriiiibbbllllleeee dream...more like nightmare!!

Are you completely 100% over your previous relationship?
Pssh! Yeahhh!!

Have you hugged anyone in the last 72 hours?
Ohhz yeahhz!!

Do you straighten your hair often?
too lazzzzzy!

Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?
Nope. I don't Hate anyone.

Your ex says "I'm sorry", what do you say?
Thanks & then keep ona walkin'

Have you ever hugged a complete stranger?
Indeed...she looked like she needed a hug..she thanked me & then she talked to me about stuff & now we're like friends. Haha:P Too bad she doesn't live here anymore :(

Is there a girl that knows a lot about you?
Idk Idc

If you had to get a piercing right now, what would it be?
Only my ears.

What do you bite on more, your tongue, lip, or nails?
Tongue

Are you listening to music right now?
Noperz

If your best friend needed you to bail her/him out of jail would you?
If I had the money..and it'd depend what they did to get in jail. They might diserve it.

Do you smoke weed everyday?
Oh u caught me!! NOT!! No, I do not! & Will not!

The person you have the strongest feelings for dies, do you care?
Well, that's just a stupid question! YEAH! lol



Are you nice to everyone?
If I feel like it.

Have you ever cried from being so mad?
Mhm

Are you someone's best friend?
Idk, Idc

Do you have anything you'd like to say, but cant?
Doesn't everyone?

Have you ever broken anyone's heart?
I don't know..Hope I didn't.



Anyone of the opposite sex been on your mind lately?
Well..in my nightmares, yeah but not in a good way..a scarry way!:( Lol



I say girls, you say?
Idc



Is it cute when guys/girls kiss you on your forehead?
No. What's cute is squirrels:)



Does it bother you when people try to make you jealous?
Nope, I really don't care. They never achieve their goal. & It just makes them look absolutely stupid.



Is it possible to be single and happy?
YUP! :D


Do you like when people play with your hair?
I don't like it when people touch me!!



Do you own a pair of skinny jeans?
Yup but, blehh!

First thing you do when you wake up?
Go back to sleep


Will this weekend be a good one?
Betta beee!



Have you ever been awake for two days straight?
Nope


Do you ignore people when you're mad/upset with them or do you talk to them?
Idk,



Break someone's heart or have your heart break?
Idk. Impossible.



Do you like someone right this second?
Nope



What would you do if you opened up your front door to a dead body?
I'd probably cry..because I seem to do that a lot & I'd call the police asap..and I'd call daddy to come get it away from my porch because I'm gunna be living all byz my self & I sure as heck aint touching no corpse!
I'd also pray for him and his family.



Missing someone?
When am I not?


Do you still talk to the last person you were in a relationship with?
Yeap, they're in my class! lol



Do you think you are a good person?
I guess.


Did you have a good day today?
Good.


Are you someone who worries too often?
Probz



Would you live with someone without marrying them?
Nope

Have you ever given up on someone, but then went back to them?
Nope


Are you sarcastic?
Sometimes


Have you ever been around someone who was high?
Yes, never again!



Could you date someone taller than you?
Everyone's taller than me!



If someone asked you what you wanted, what would you say?
To keep getting closer to God. <3



Do you cry easy?
Yeah I guess



Are you happy with the way things are going?
Yeah I guess


Do you have trust issues?
Indeed

Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can talk to?
Yeap


Are you afraid to tell your true feelings?
Y?


Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?
Don't know.

Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?
Bahahahahaha!! Ohhhhz yeahhhz! lol

Your sins r hotter than the sun!!

Heart Racing. Head Beating.
Can't breathe. Overheating.
Scary, want to get away.
The nightmare that taunts me day by day.
Stuck in an embrace..an embrace she doesn't want to be in.
With you or anyone else.
She crie, screams out.
No replies just snickers all about.
No one cares about what's going on.
I can't believe people are like this in the world.
Hurt an innocent, helpless girl.
Threaten,Scream, give pain that's not due.
I dislike you..How could you do that to a girl?
You are cruel..You're one the devil brought into the world!
For anyone who's ever done such bad..
You truly truly truly make me sad & mad.
How can you go on with life..Knowing what you've done?
Your sins are hotter than the sun.
Someday...You'll meet the other end of the gun.
& You'll get the headache you gave to the girl.
You'll get the "award" that ruined her whole world.
You're crazy. Sick. To take a life like this.
You're weird..You devil supporter, you.
You Need God. He's the only one that can help you..
If you're not already passed being able to be helped.
I can't believe you could do such sins.
I hope and pray that even Hells doors won't let u in!!!!!


I'm tired of what I watch on the news, dreams I dream, nightmares I have, I'm tired of opening a newspaper and seeing this. What I'm referring to isn't being shot in the head it's being raped..to any girl who isn't crazy, it could kind of feel like death. & towards the end..I'm referring to all you sickos out there finally getting shot in the head..Just like you shot these girls in the heart!


Steph Alderson IS OUT!!!!
My God is an AMAZING God!:D

"I'm sorry to say so but, sadly it's true that bang-ups and hang-ups can happen to u!" -Dr. Suess

"Sometimes the questions are complicated & the answers are simple." :) -Dr. Suess

I had a super duper day, after my freaky dream which I rather not share it to the world wide web because well, I prefer my dreams to not be known to people whom I have never met.

We got our yearbooks..they're ok..kinda lame but, hey better than nothing.:)
& 1st hour was boring..we just answered questions..and honestly, I talked to Rae the whole time because we were already down. & 2nd hour- was p.e we played spasketball or whatever it's called again. & 3rd hour- Civics it wasn't as fun as usual.
4th hour Algebra2....just discussed stuff that's going to be on our upcoming test. 5th hour- computers weren't working so we colored and painted. 6th hour we did book work. Fun..:P & then school was over early because we had parent teacher conferences and we have no school tomorrow..yayy. lol Actually, I rather be at school..I'm bored!! lol & Now I'm babysitting..funnnn:P Hehe:) & I'm ready for.....umm...Monday!:) Haha & Dr. Suess is amazzzzinnnngggg!!:) Lol
& now I'm reading a book that C let me borrow & it's really good so far.

"Don't let your dreams stop reality but, don't let reality stop your dreams."

“You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes. You can steer yourself in any direction you choose. You're on your own.
And you know what you know. You are the guy who'll decide where to go.”


Well, I'm off to finish reading...:)
Steph Alderson...
The Bomb Diggity
GOD IS AMAZZZZZZZINGGGGG!!:):):):)<<< YUPPPPPP!!!!!!!!:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:

ldjfsfkl

I had an okey dokey day..
Could've been better.. but, oh well..not everday is bright and cheery.
Last hour was awesome, & P.E and basketball was fun. 6th hour was ok. The rest of the day is a blur.. Lol:P & We finally had our Teens 4 Christ meeting. I wish people who are only there to yapp about stupid stuff, wouldn't bother coming. & I shouldn't of said that but, gosh..I thought I blabbed a lot!! lol

well, the season finale of big brother is on...so later!

Ready for what tomorrow will bring..yearbooks!

Steph Alderson

:D Tip of De Dayyy!:)

oh yeah & the running tip of the day is to not almost fall in a pond when you're in a race...I know this from experience..almost slid and fell in it but, some nice girl saved me.....this goes to prove that not all strangers are scary..:D

Mt. Magazine XC!:)

Had a good day today...

Oh, who am I kidding school was laaaaameee but, I had fun at the cross-country meet w/ Cameron,Trace,Cody,Sol.,& I guess Jon. LOL:P
We even got pizza afterwards!!:) Mhm & I stole Cameron's cherry pizza haha..It was the last piece, so I asked him to go get me a napkin and then I got his pizza..but, I broke it in half..:D Hehehehe:) He said I ate more than any chick he's ever met..& then Cody was like ohh he's calling you fat & then the argument began.:D Haha:P
& Jon probably said some dumb things but,....we normally ignore him.:P Haha:)

& Welp, I'm ready 4 school tomorrow!!!:D
Steph:)

Sept. 13. Hut!:)

"Lace up your shoes, here's how we do..Run, Baby, Run!! Don't ever look back! Keep ur eyes on the race, stay on the track!!"

CROSS-COUNTRY RACE TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!:) SUPER DUPER EXCITED! LOL

First off, I've had comments saying this isn't a blog about a teenage runner!
No where in this blog did I ever say it was going to just talk about running. It says life of a teenage runner! I'm talking about my life! No one's life is just about running. Honestly, my life is all GOD! Running is a big part in it but, I'm not going to type about running in every blog. If ya have a problem w/ my life then maybe..this aint the blog for you but, if you really want me to, for now on I'll talk a little bit about running. It makes you sweat. There you go, Are You Satisfied? :) Mhm, that's what I though! LOL:)

My day was spectacular!!
Yeap!
First hour, I wrote an amazingly awesome story. 2nd hour, We played some kinda basketball where we couldn't dribble..it was fun..:) 3rd hour, we read more about the constitution..I already know enoughhh!! Heeellllppp meee! LOL:) 4th hour, Algebra2..easy sneezy!:) 5th hour, CBA! I was already ahead so I got done and had like 20min. of free time. 6th hour, We watched some video thing. 7th hour...wait...drumroll..BASKETBALL!:) Lol My favorite classssss:) Lol & then last hour I had a student council meeting. The homecoming theme is A walk to remember and it's going to have a beach back drop and palm trees and crap..kind of old and cheesy, if I do say so myself but, ohhhzz welllzzz.. I'm getting annoyed w/ archery though because aunt b isn't even trying to work the practices around basketball practices. That woman is crazy! Does she actually think people are going to choose archery over basketball? Well, some might but, I aint..I think I've just about had enough of this womans negative attitude during basketball. We argued earlier about when the student council meeting was going to be held..I told her if it was scheduled during 7th hour then I wasn't going. She said she doesn't really give a flip about basketball & that we should work around her schedule not vice versa. This woman irritates me quite intensly. I mean seriously, I'm not doing fine arts because of her and ya know..I think I'm quiting archery too. Anyone, who tries to make me choose between one or the other is no friend of mine. Grr. LOL:) but, other than that my day was supertastic!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh, and then afterschool me & Sarah went to basketball practice.

& now I'm pumped for the race!!
Let's goo my schoooll!!:D Lol
Stephyy Alderson #5!:)

Not gunna be yo hun:)

Just a song I made because I was bored...LOL:)

"You called her your sweetheart,
Boy, did you lie..
You called her your everything,
but, you sure made her cry!!
You treated her like crap,
You wouldn't care if she died..
What are you going to do,
When she figures out you lied?
She's gunna go histerical
Gunna scream and cry and run..
& you'll say babe we're over
& next week, you'll have a new hun,
When you walk beside her in the halls,
Her broken heart won't bother you at all
because you're gunna keep going til your engine stalls..
What are you going to do when you have to deal with it all?
You lied. I cried.
You still don't care..
I thought you changed
But, I was wrong..
& now I'm that girl walking down the hall,
trying to pretend you and her don't bother me at all.
Goodbye to us..hello to yall.
Yeah..but, I aint gunna let this bother me at all..
Just keep on running, Keep on soaking up the sun..
Someday you'll come back to me..
When you get tired of calling everyone hun..
but, I'll be gone..I'll be gone..Far away..
In a lil road race..
Soaking up my own sun...
& not wanting to be your girl..
Not wanting to be your hun!
Yeah, I'm through..It's game over for you
I'm done."

:)Spectacular!:)

My life has been spectacular:)
The rain, did finally go away fyi..&
I got to run in a race yesterday, it was pretty fun:)
&& I got school 2mrw..bummer!!:( Hehe:)
I've come to the realization that....Honey Glazed Donuts are amazzzzinnnnggg!!:):)
Daddy asked me if I wanted to go out to eat after my race, I said well hecks no! I want donuts!!!:D Hehe
& even know the twins were upset with me, I got what I wanted.:)
& Now I got another race Tuesday..It's only a mile and a half..more of a sprinting thing..not much of a sprinter but, coach yeager says it'll be fun so I guess I'll give it a shot. School life's been decent..I'm tired of people getting angry with me because I am not who they want me to be, because I won't say what they want me to say & because they hear some lame rumor that I like there little lover boy or exboyfriend. Ohhmyyjumpingjacks! What part of this girl aint dating ever again, do these chickaz not understand?? Hehe but, ohhzz wellzz...their loss, not mine!!:)
& Plus, I really don't care. I'm not at school to make friends.:) Even know mommy and daddy says it's important.:) Hehe
I read an awesome book called She Said Yes..I mean the story is true..and horribly sad but, if you read it I promise you it'll have an impact on your life. Either spiritually,family wise,self esteem..whatever just read it!!!! It's a sad story & I'm sad it happened but, the girl is a hero. & their is a lot of people as amazing as her out there, we just normally walk by them & think they're weird because we judge. Everyone does. & It's not our right. We will all be judged when the day comes so, just give up! :) Just sayin...

Well, Imma gett offa hereee...:)
Steph Alderson is Outt!!<3

September 09!:) Yeah baby:)

Woahhh woahh woahh

"You called me short..
I called you crazy..
You called me babe..
I called you lazy..
you were so nice to me..
i was a pain in the knee
and here i am all sad..and a littke lonely
because..I tried to be mee..
I guess that's just wrong..
aint really right
but, i aint changing for you
I'm steph and that's just fine!
You were cute
You made me smile..
but, only every once in a while..
I guess I should've accepted..
How you are when being rejected..
I'm not ordinary...I'm not some kinda horney gypsy..and hun, i aint your fairy
You get over it...I'm tired of being treated like some kinda dairy.
I aint taking this no more!
Go ahead and walk out of the door!
Cheat on me, I don't really care.
If ya wanna take my bestie..
Fine get er outta my hair!
Ya wanna be friends?
Well that sounds great.
God says I gotta love and that I can't hate.
But, babe..If i could hate..you'd be the one!
I'm tired of the truth being all unraveled and undone.
What happened to fairy tales? What happened to a relationship w/ out all the yells?
I just wanna be the princess.
I'm tired of being treated like crap.
What did I ever do to diserve this and... that?
Maybe, It was a lesson
Guess it was a part of the plan..
I just wish there was more fairy tale endings.
Maybe I'll fall in love then.
But, now I just don't see it..
You're a jerkkkofff!!
What did I do to diserve this?
Rather be alone for years and years
then to date some jerk who treats me like crap.
Yeah I aint taking that!. "

Okay, when I get bored I type. LOL

Rain is annoying!! LOL:)
1st hr- already soaked by rain..:( & gots to dooo some englaaaashh haha i learneeed well:P haha jk Nahh I love English:)
2nd hr- P.E.. atleast I got to change in to my dry clothes:) Lol & I honestly don't remember what I did in that class. My mind was elsewhere, I guess. Idk. I just really don't remember. I remember an orange cone though..lol
3rd- Gotz 2 learn me some constitution!! yeahh:)
4th hr- Algebra2! Graphing inequalities!! Fun, fun... and kinda easy:)
5th hr- CBA!!:) Test...100%! Yeahh, baby. lol
6th hr- AgSci&Tech- Test! don't know what grade.

& we gotta outta school early. lol

"All this time how could u not baby, you belong with me" Sorry...Amy's blasted taylor swift...lol

Rain rain go away!!:)

A very happy 14 year old is getting offa here!!:)
Steph Alderson

!C-H-R-I-S-T-I-A-N-S!

I am one uncomfortable 14yr old. I'm in my pjs w/ a wayy oversized hoody, fuzzy socks:) & my ankle's killing me.
I got pushed like really freaking hard by a freaking idiot who did it on "accident" you don't push someone that hard and far, on accident dylan! & So now my ankle is now the size of a tennis ball. Thrills. but, I can't let it show at home or no sports for me. I hated it when I asked which one I cared about more basketball or cross country. That's a dumb question! I like basketball more but, my freaking ankle doesn't agree with me. & It hurts with everything I stinking do in basketball yet, I put up with the pain because mom said if it hurts me again I'm not playing basketball. so yeah that was a kind of dumb question to me and it kind of hurt my feelings. But, it doesn't matter, right? Yeah. It doesn't because in this world no one cares about others. They care about themselves. Also, for people who don't get me, which is pretty much everyone in the world. I'm not referring to my coach about the whole only caring about themselves thing. My coach is cool, I have nothing bad to say about him. I just thought it was a stupid question. I'm referring to you stupid people in the world who say things in front of people, talk bad about people you don't know, etc. & I could care less about what you think of me but, I do care about how you treat others. If you don't know a person, don't say things. It's that simple. & If you do know a person don't say things either. I saw people cry today that I thought I'd never see cry. It breaks my heart. Humanity disgusts me. God gave us life! Jesus died for our sins! Yet, we still judge. We still murder, kidnap, lie, cheat, etc. We use people. Why? Simply because it's easy. It's common. Have you ever thought of doing it the "hard way". It is hard not to judge, not to lie, etc. but, those who are true christians. Those who truly love God. You treat them horrible. they have feelings to! Just because you're jealous of them doesn't mean you can be jerks to them. & That doesn't give Christians permission to be jerks to you either but, umm hint the word CHRISTIANS! CHRISTIANS don't judge or be jerks to innocent people or atleast they shouldn't. So don't judge us all just because of one person. I'm sorry I'm full of attitude today. My facebook status said I was grouchy when I woke up this morning. I gave you my fair warning. Deal with it.

Like I said...I'm a very grumpy 14 yr old who can't stand seeing these sins anymore.
Who has plans, and dreams & unlike some, I'm not going to let opinions of people stop me.
Yeah, I'm ditzy,"stupid", I'm whatever you want to call me. That's your opinion. To God, I'm one of His children. & Honestly, He's all that matters to me.

I love you!
Sorry for my rude words.
Steph Alderson. <3

Unclassified Loon.

I feel like I'm in the wrong place. If you can even understand that. I guess not, I guess if I explained my feelings to you, you'd think I'm a loon. Well, I may be..Idk...I really don't care what you think. I feel like I'm not supposed to be here. I just feel so out of place. I've felt like this off and on for a very long time & it came back.:( & my dreams aren't helping me any. They're telling me the same thing. My dreams are weird, creepy, but, interesting enough to write a book about them. These last few weeks, I've had the most vivid dreams ever. None of them relate to each other at all except for the simple fact that in each dream, I'm not here. & there was a few that had people..that I don't know..never seen before...I'm just scared I guess. I don't know what to do, how to react..nothing. I can't share this with anyone, I'll get classified as mentally challenged & put in sped. & I'm not mentally challenged. I know that for a fact. It's just...I don't think anyone would understand what I'm trying to say. I guess I could tell them all I typed here but, once again, I'd be classified as a loon! LOL I guess that all I can do is pray about it & Let God take over. I just need to keep following His plan.

I <3 you God!
Steph Alderson.
An Unclassified Loon.

Lies. My thoughts confirmed.

I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all.

I know I shouldn't but I do.
You're a liar,cheater,jerk, who cares only about u.
You smile and everyone melts.
You don't give a hell how any one feels or has felt.
You walk the walk and you talk the talk.
What are ya gunna do when you get that broke leg?
What are ya gunna do when you have to beg?
When are you going to learn that, Church is best.
When are you realize that you needa rest?
I don't care. You can lie cheat whatever.
Just don't bring me in the middle.
Yanky doo day diddle.

My thoughts confirmed over somethings.

Have you ever felt like you are all alone in this world. You always have God and Jesus but, you know what I mean. Like you feel like you have no one on earth like human wise that you can talk to? that's exactly how I feel right now.
I don't trust anyone. When you lie to me, I lose trust most automatically. It's called shielding. & it's how I am with everyone now. There isn't a person in my life who hasn't lied to me. & that's my problem right now. My heart can't take any more lies. My soul is tired of people's lies. & so is my mind.

I'm tired of lies!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mask it outt.

My day's been flat out horrible.
This day has to be the worst one yet.
You know it really gets old..smiling and laughing when you really don't feel like smiling and you really don't think somethings funny but, that's what you gotta do. Hide behind a mask for as long as possible and then when your mask cracks..make sure it's late at night when everyone's a sleep or in the shower. or when you're all alone. Yes, it's quite simple. Depression? Maybe. Enough to make me want to actually injure or kill myself? No..not yet atleast. but, I'll be fine...Just need to refresh "the mask" & I'll be set to go.

Later.
Steph