"Grow A Pair".

Gah.
Gah.
Gah.
Gah.
Gah.
Why did God waste His time with me?
I'm a fool.
I can't control my words,
my actions,
my thoughts,
my tears,
my smiles,
I can't control anything.
I was just a waste.
I'm a failure.
I'm horrible.
I know God doesn't make junk, but why do I feel like a pile of dog crap that's been stepped on,rained on, attacked by maggots, struck by lightning, ran over by a semi, & then stuck on the bottom of a snobs shoe? I am a horrible person.
The whole positive attitude thing..It works great. It makes others happy but, I don't feel a bit happy. & So now I am questioning,judging my self, & I'm doing exactly what the devil wants me to. I'm going to have to ignore this, keep my head high, & glue a smile on my face, continue thinking positive, & as my ignorant coach would say, "grow a pair".

Sincerely,
Steph Alderson.