Not gunna be yo hun:)

Just a song I made because I was bored...LOL:)

"You called her your sweetheart,
Boy, did you lie..
You called her your everything,
but, you sure made her cry!!
You treated her like crap,
You wouldn't care if she died..
What are you going to do,
When she figures out you lied?
She's gunna go histerical
Gunna scream and cry and run..
& you'll say babe we're over
& next week, you'll have a new hun,
When you walk beside her in the halls,
Her broken heart won't bother you at all
because you're gunna keep going til your engine stalls..
What are you going to do when you have to deal with it all?
You lied. I cried.
You still don't care..
I thought you changed
But, I was wrong..
& now I'm that girl walking down the hall,
trying to pretend you and her don't bother me at all.
Goodbye to us..hello to yall.
Yeah..but, I aint gunna let this bother me at all..
Just keep on running, Keep on soaking up the sun..
Someday you'll come back to me..
When you get tired of calling everyone hun..
but, I'll be gone..I'll be gone..Far away..
In a lil road race..
Soaking up my own sun...
& not wanting to be your girl..
Not wanting to be your hun!
Yeah, I'm through..It's game over for you
I'm done."

:)Spectacular!:)

My life has been spectacular:)
The rain, did finally go away fyi..&
I got to run in a race yesterday, it was pretty fun:)
&& I got school 2mrw..bummer!!:( Hehe:)
I've come to the realization that....Honey Glazed Donuts are amazzzzinnnnggg!!:):)
Daddy asked me if I wanted to go out to eat after my race, I said well hecks no! I want donuts!!!:D Hehe
& even know the twins were upset with me, I got what I wanted.:)
& Now I got another race Tuesday..It's only a mile and a half..more of a sprinting thing..not much of a sprinter but, coach yeager says it'll be fun so I guess I'll give it a shot. School life's been decent..I'm tired of people getting angry with me because I am not who they want me to be, because I won't say what they want me to say & because they hear some lame rumor that I like there little lover boy or exboyfriend. Ohhmyyjumpingjacks! What part of this girl aint dating ever again, do these chickaz not understand?? Hehe but, ohhzz wellzz...their loss, not mine!!:)
& Plus, I really don't care. I'm not at school to make friends.:) Even know mommy and daddy says it's important.:) Hehe
I read an awesome book called She Said Yes..I mean the story is true..and horribly sad but, if you read it I promise you it'll have an impact on your life. Either spiritually,family wise,self esteem..whatever just read it!!!! It's a sad story & I'm sad it happened but, the girl is a hero. & their is a lot of people as amazing as her out there, we just normally walk by them & think they're weird because we judge. Everyone does. & It's not our right. We will all be judged when the day comes so, just give up! :) Just sayin...

Well, Imma gett offa hereee...:)
Steph Alderson is Outt!!<3

September 09!:) Yeah baby:)

Woahhh woahh woahh

"You called me short..
I called you crazy..
You called me babe..
I called you lazy..
you were so nice to me..
i was a pain in the knee
and here i am all sad..and a littke lonely
because..I tried to be mee..
I guess that's just wrong..
aint really right
but, i aint changing for you
I'm steph and that's just fine!
You were cute
You made me smile..
but, only every once in a while..
I guess I should've accepted..
How you are when being rejected..
I'm not ordinary...I'm not some kinda horney gypsy..and hun, i aint your fairy
You get over it...I'm tired of being treated like some kinda dairy.
I aint taking this no more!
Go ahead and walk out of the door!
Cheat on me, I don't really care.
If ya wanna take my bestie..
Fine get er outta my hair!
Ya wanna be friends?
Well that sounds great.
God says I gotta love and that I can't hate.
But, babe..If i could hate..you'd be the one!
I'm tired of the truth being all unraveled and undone.
What happened to fairy tales? What happened to a relationship w/ out all the yells?
I just wanna be the princess.
I'm tired of being treated like crap.
What did I ever do to diserve this and... that?
Maybe, It was a lesson
Guess it was a part of the plan..
I just wish there was more fairy tale endings.
Maybe I'll fall in love then.
But, now I just don't see it..
You're a jerkkkofff!!
What did I do to diserve this?
Rather be alone for years and years
then to date some jerk who treats me like crap.
Yeah I aint taking that!. "

Okay, when I get bored I type. LOL

Rain is annoying!! LOL:)
1st hr- already soaked by rain..:( & gots to dooo some englaaaashh haha i learneeed well:P haha jk Nahh I love English:)
2nd hr- P.E.. atleast I got to change in to my dry clothes:) Lol & I honestly don't remember what I did in that class. My mind was elsewhere, I guess. Idk. I just really don't remember. I remember an orange cone though..lol
3rd- Gotz 2 learn me some constitution!! yeahh:)
4th hr- Algebra2! Graphing inequalities!! Fun, fun... and kinda easy:)
5th hr- CBA!!:) Test...100%! Yeahh, baby. lol
6th hr- AgSci&Tech- Test! don't know what grade.

& we gotta outta school early. lol

"All this time how could u not baby, you belong with me" Sorry...Amy's blasted taylor swift...lol

Rain rain go away!!:)

A very happy 14 year old is getting offa here!!:)
Steph Alderson

!C-H-R-I-S-T-I-A-N-S!

I am one uncomfortable 14yr old. I'm in my pjs w/ a wayy oversized hoody, fuzzy socks:) & my ankle's killing me.
I got pushed like really freaking hard by a freaking idiot who did it on "accident" you don't push someone that hard and far, on accident dylan! & So now my ankle is now the size of a tennis ball. Thrills. but, I can't let it show at home or no sports for me. I hated it when I asked which one I cared about more basketball or cross country. That's a dumb question! I like basketball more but, my freaking ankle doesn't agree with me. & It hurts with everything I stinking do in basketball yet, I put up with the pain because mom said if it hurts me again I'm not playing basketball. so yeah that was a kind of dumb question to me and it kind of hurt my feelings. But, it doesn't matter, right? Yeah. It doesn't because in this world no one cares about others. They care about themselves. Also, for people who don't get me, which is pretty much everyone in the world. I'm not referring to my coach about the whole only caring about themselves thing. My coach is cool, I have nothing bad to say about him. I just thought it was a stupid question. I'm referring to you stupid people in the world who say things in front of people, talk bad about people you don't know, etc. & I could care less about what you think of me but, I do care about how you treat others. If you don't know a person, don't say things. It's that simple. & If you do know a person don't say things either. I saw people cry today that I thought I'd never see cry. It breaks my heart. Humanity disgusts me. God gave us life! Jesus died for our sins! Yet, we still judge. We still murder, kidnap, lie, cheat, etc. We use people. Why? Simply because it's easy. It's common. Have you ever thought of doing it the "hard way". It is hard not to judge, not to lie, etc. but, those who are true christians. Those who truly love God. You treat them horrible. they have feelings to! Just because you're jealous of them doesn't mean you can be jerks to them. & That doesn't give Christians permission to be jerks to you either but, umm hint the word CHRISTIANS! CHRISTIANS don't judge or be jerks to innocent people or atleast they shouldn't. So don't judge us all just because of one person. I'm sorry I'm full of attitude today. My facebook status said I was grouchy when I woke up this morning. I gave you my fair warning. Deal with it.

Like I said...I'm a very grumpy 14 yr old who can't stand seeing these sins anymore.
Who has plans, and dreams & unlike some, I'm not going to let opinions of people stop me.
Yeah, I'm ditzy,"stupid", I'm whatever you want to call me. That's your opinion. To God, I'm one of His children. & Honestly, He's all that matters to me.

I love you!
Sorry for my rude words.
Steph Alderson. <3

Unclassified Loon.

I feel like I'm in the wrong place. If you can even understand that. I guess not, I guess if I explained my feelings to you, you'd think I'm a loon. Well, I may be..Idk...I really don't care what you think. I feel like I'm not supposed to be here. I just feel so out of place. I've felt like this off and on for a very long time & it came back.:( & my dreams aren't helping me any. They're telling me the same thing. My dreams are weird, creepy, but, interesting enough to write a book about them. These last few weeks, I've had the most vivid dreams ever. None of them relate to each other at all except for the simple fact that in each dream, I'm not here. & there was a few that had people..that I don't know..never seen before...I'm just scared I guess. I don't know what to do, how to react..nothing. I can't share this with anyone, I'll get classified as mentally challenged & put in sped. & I'm not mentally challenged. I know that for a fact. It's just...I don't think anyone would understand what I'm trying to say. I guess I could tell them all I typed here but, once again, I'd be classified as a loon! LOL I guess that all I can do is pray about it & Let God take over. I just need to keep following His plan.

I <3 you God!
Steph Alderson.
An Unclassified Loon.

Lies. My thoughts confirmed.

I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all.

I know I shouldn't but I do.
You're a liar,cheater,jerk, who cares only about u.
You smile and everyone melts.
You don't give a hell how any one feels or has felt.
You walk the walk and you talk the talk.
What are ya gunna do when you get that broke leg?
What are ya gunna do when you have to beg?
When are you going to learn that, Church is best.
When are you realize that you needa rest?
I don't care. You can lie cheat whatever.
Just don't bring me in the middle.
Yanky doo day diddle.

My thoughts confirmed over somethings.

Have you ever felt like you are all alone in this world. You always have God and Jesus but, you know what I mean. Like you feel like you have no one on earth like human wise that you can talk to? that's exactly how I feel right now.
I don't trust anyone. When you lie to me, I lose trust most automatically. It's called shielding. & it's how I am with everyone now. There isn't a person in my life who hasn't lied to me. & that's my problem right now. My heart can't take any more lies. My soul is tired of people's lies. & so is my mind.

I'm tired of lies!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mask it outt.

My day's been flat out horrible.
This day has to be the worst one yet.
You know it really gets old..smiling and laughing when you really don't feel like smiling and you really don't think somethings funny but, that's what you gotta do. Hide behind a mask for as long as possible and then when your mask cracks..make sure it's late at night when everyone's a sleep or in the shower. or when you're all alone. Yes, it's quite simple. Depression? Maybe. Enough to make me want to actually injure or kill myself? No..not yet atleast. but, I'll be fine...Just need to refresh "the mask" & I'll be set to go.

Later.
Steph