My Day..

My Day was a handful.
Not my "cup of tea"..
I don't feel all up to explaining it.
I don't feel like typing anymore.
& I sure as heck don't feel like smiling.
Who am I to call someone else rude?
But, who are they to yell at me?
Who am I to get mad?
But, who are they to get mad as well?
To me, we're both at fault. But, believe it or not, I truly don't care, this isn't what has been eating me up alive all day.
My realizations is what have been eating at my soul.
I've been trying to push it off, keep a smile and talk to sound out my thoughts...But, well, obviously that isn't working, I get irritated when someone doesn't babble along, I get angry when I receive no smile back, & I never push it off hard enough. It's as if smiling, talking, and ignoring is all that helps me through the day & at the end of the day, I still feel like I've failed & like a pile of crap that's been stepped in and ran over by a semi. Complaining. Whining. None of that will help.
Talking to anyone besides God, that won't help either. I'm obviously in this on my own, with God ofcourse....
But, lately that hasn't felt like enough & that is ridiculous, I know.
& That states my problem....
How to I delete the ridiculous...


God, please help me get back on my path.
I love you.
Steph Alderson.